Friday, May 27, 2005
New skin, new lay-out
I got tired of looking at my template courtesy of www.blogger.com so I decided to look for a new skin at www.blogskins.com.
Bear with me because this lay-out needs a lot of html editing before I can personalize it.
Maan @ 12:28 AM
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Sunday, May 22, 2005
My Mother, My Life
Last May 8 was Mother's Day. Mother's Day is always celebrated on the first Sunday of the month of May.
So Mama, Lola and I went to Tagaytay to celebrate THEIR DAY. I have to say that without my Mama and my Lola, I will not be here right now in front of my PC and writing this entry. Since it was Mother's Day yesterday, let me tell you a few things about me and my mother.
From the time I was born until my pre-school years, she reads to me almost every night until I fall asleep or until she falls asleep. My favorite books were Fox in Socks by Dr. Seuss and The Three Billy Goats Gruff. When my brother was born, she told me, "I can't read to you anymore because I have to take care of your brother. You have to learn to read by yourself." So I was forced to learn my ABCs.
Whenever she gets home from the office, she makes it a point to buy me and my brother something and we actually call it 'something'. I thought that 'something' meant 'pasalubong'.
Whenever my brother and I would fight she would tell us, "Pag may umiyak na isa sa inyo mamaya, malilintikan kayo sakin!"
She never forced us to finish our meals, go to church on Sundays or to study for an exam. When we were kids, we basically did what we wanted to do as long as the house is clean and all our body parts are complete when she gets home.
Aside from death and dying, I am very afraid of the dark. Before, when I had to pee in the middle of the night, I had to wake up Mama to accompany me to the bathroom. If I wanted to go to the kitchn for a glass of water, I ask Mama to accompany me. It became a nuisance to Mama so she told me, "Pumunta ka na dun at kumuha ng tubig! Saan ka mas takot? Sa akin o sa multo?" Of course I was more scared of my mom.
Until now I'm still afraid of the dark. Whenever I go upstairs to our bedroom, I run as fast as I can and Mama would ask, "O! Bat hinihingal ka? Bat nagmamadali ka?" and I would say, "Nakakatakot sa baba!" and she would say, "Parang kang baliw!"
She became a single mother when I was 6 and my brother was 3. She sacrificed a lot for us. She worked her butt off just so she could send us to the excellent schools and make sure we have a bright future ahead of us.
When I was little and cried because I hurt myself from playing or being too makulit, she would tell me, "Wag ka masyadong umiyak. Pag namatay ako baka wala ka ng luha na iiyak." Morbid. But it works most of the time. I try to save my tears for my mother's death.
Speaking of death, Mama wants to be cremated and be buried under a tree she calls "Spring Showers". As of now, I have no idea what that tree looks like and where to get it.
Mamais totally obsessed over American Idol. She watches the primetime show on ABC 5 around 7PM. When I get home around 10PM and start watching it, she watches again. I seldom watch the American Idol when it's time to vote off someone so she usually texts me and tells me who got voted off.
When I can't sleep at night, I hold Mama's hand or hug her. After a few minutes, I'm already sleeping.
Mama is my No. 1 Fan. If I tell her that I want to be the President of the Republic of the Philippines in the future, she will believe me.
Mama is my No. 1 Consoler (if there is such a noun).
Year 1996
Mama: Bat ka umiiyak?
Maan: Bumagsak ako sa UP!!!
Mama: Eh ano naman? Sa La Salle ka mag-enroll. Mas maganda naman dun kesa UP.
Maan: Sinasabi mo lang yan coz bumagsak ako sa UP!
Mama: Hindi ah. Nagpapasalamat nga ako di ka nakapasa. Ayoko sa UP.
Maan: Oo na! La Salle na!
Year 1999
Mama: Sinung kausap mo? Boyfriend mo?
Maan: Boyfriend? Hindi ko boyfriend yun noh.
Mama: Hindi mo na boyfriend. Bakit? Break na kayo?
Maan: Oo.
Mama: Bakit?
Maan: Kasi kupal sya.
Mama: Tama yan. Kung kupal, hiwalayan mo. Walang kwenta yan. Marami pang iba dyan.
Year 2004
Mama: O anong nangyari? Natanggap ka?
Maan: Hindi.
Mama: Ha? Bakit? Anung nangyari?
Maan: Ewan ko sa kanila. Mga kupal sila. Magsisisi sila na di nila ako tinanggap.
Mama: Hayaan mo na. Ginusto ng Diyos yan.
Maan: Ginusto na naman ng Diyos...
I believe the biggest fight that Mama and I had was over my brother's cellphone. Ironically, I'm the one using it and paying for its monthly bills.
I was very self-conscious when I was a kid. Lahat nalang ng bagay, nahihiya ako. Then Mama told me, "Bat ka nahihiya? Mahiya ka lang pag may ginawa kang mali." Ngayon, nasobrahan naman yata ang confidence ko.
My mom is my life. Everything I am today, I owe it to her. Everything I do, I am doing just to make her proud. I cannot imagine living my life without my mom.
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You may have tangible wealth untold;
Caskets of jewels and coffers of gold.
Richer than I you can never be -
I had a mother who read to me.
-Strickland Gillilan
Maan @ 11:02 PM
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On a Sunday Afternoon
It's a sunday and I'm pissed.
Why?
Because tomorrow is a monday and I hate mondays.
Because I can't seem to fix my PC and upgrade it to Windows XP because my floppy disk isn't working and I've lost the driver for my motherboard.
Because I cannot fine the official receipt of my driver's license.
Which means I have to create an affidavit of loss and have it notarized.
Because if I don't do that, I won't be able to have my car fixed.
And it has to be fixed before my boss sees it and think that I'm a reckless driver (which is true).
So I decided to go online and chat with Kartika who's already in San Francisco and to check out some quizzes in quizzila.com.
First quiz I tooK: What Kind of Kiss Are You?
Below is the result:
You have a goodbye kiss- much passion and longing,
but never lasting.
What kind of kiss are you? brought to you by Quizilla
Maan @ 4:54 PM
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Saturday, May 21, 2005
For Marianne
Marianne is my tukayo. Her nickname is also Maan. I met her in RCBC during our first day in Business Eco class. We became groupmates for the whole term not by choice but by chance. We never thought that we would become friends.
For the short time I've known Marianne, she became one of my few closest friends. I can tell her my deepest, darkest secrets and fears. We've shared a lot and experienced a lot together.
Like commuting to Tagaytay at night or going to a spa somewhere in the north wherein the bathroom is communal and you have to take off all your clothes in front of other women so you can shower. She is my lunch partner when I don't feel like eating with my officemates. We go out for dinner or coffee during the weekends. I cannot imagine my life without Marianne.
Next friday is Marianne's flight going to the US. I will be missing a lunch partner, coffee partner, gimmick partner, classmate and of course, a friend. Marianne, along with Trexyl, became the sisters I never had. Without Marianne, my frapuccino will not be as sweet, lunch and dinner will not be that good.
Bago ako maiyak dito, let's move on to lighter stuff...
Check out my photo with JB Gatchalian! JB is my classmate in grad school and my major crush... before. Ngayon, slight crush nalang. JB looks like Patrick Garcia, don't you think? This guy is very down-to-earth, friendly, and smart. Grabeh! Sinong babae ba naman ang hindi ma-i-in love sa lalakeng ito? Tingnan nyo ha! Red lips pa! Mas red pa sa akin at sa lagay na yan naka-lip gloss ako. Take note, naka-akbay sya sakin sa photo na ito! Bagay ba kami? Bagay na bagay noh! Parang we were meant to be... meant to be just friends. Hahaha! Ang tagal kong pinangarap na magkaroon ng picture na ganito! God, what have I done to deserve this? He is currently in the dating arena but no one really serious... yet.
Kaso nga lang, may boyfriend ako. And walang spark eh. So... sorry nalang JB, better luck next time. I like you pero may mahal na akong iba. Hahaha!!! (JB, wag ka sana pikon. Nagpapatawa lang ako dito. Thanks for being such a good sport.)
Maan @ 3:56 AM
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Sunday, May 15, 2005
Summer is ALMOST over
Almost, but not quite.
I've been to Puerto Galera twice this summer. Before the summer ends, I'm hoping for another out-of-town gimmick to come up. Like Boracay... or Palawan... or Bohol. Anywhere. I need another out-of-town vacation before school starts.
PJ bought me this really cute bikini in Mossimo so now I have a reason to go the beach.
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Speaking of school, I haven't paid for my tuition yet. Last day of payment in RCBC was last friday so that means I have to go to far away Taft just to pay for my tuition.
I know that Grad School is supposed to be fun and I'm supposed to enjoy it, which is what has happened for the last three terms. I enjoyed my classes immensely especially Management Principles under Prof. Alex Trajano even though I only got a passing grade of 2.0. But next term might be a totally different thing. Marianne's not gonna be there since she'll be in the US. Trexyl will be my classmate for one subject only. The others have already graduated from PGDM.
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Due to the intense summer heat, the thought of staying at home even with the aircon in full blast is just killing me! Thus I was able to drive alone going to Alabang Town Center and SM Bacoor! Yahoo! Another achievement for me!
Achievement talaga because I was able to avoid hitting anyone or anything and I was able to follow all the traffic rules and regulations.
Today, SM Bacoor. Tomorrow, Makati! In my dreams.
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It's already 11:30PM and I don't feel like sleeping. I got used to sleeping at around 1 AM everyday for the past couple of weeks. I'm dreading tomorrow, which is a Monday. Just thinking of all the things I need to do makes me want to pack my stuff and quit! Thank God for Russel and Chris - my ever-dependable and smart OJTs. How can I do my job without them? Hehehe!
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I can't wait for saturday.
Maan @ 11:30 PM
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Friday, May 13, 2005
San ba nakakabili ng spark?
Remember Noringai? The writer of 'Parang Kayo, Pero Hindi'? Her latest piece titled 'San ba nakakabili ng spark?' was forwarded to me by Leny early today.
So I replied:
To: All Fleet Customer Service OfficersFrom: MaanSo saan nga ba nakakabili ng spark?
To: All Fleet Customer Service OfficersFrom: CKAng dami-dami mong spark... sipain kita dyan eh!
To: All Fleet Customer Service OfficersFrom: MaanOo nga. Ang dami... liliyab na ako!
Saan ba makakabili ng fire extinguisher?
Read on to understand the meaning of
'spark'.
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San ba nakakabili ng Spark?
by NoringaiSan ba nakakabili ng Spark?
Iyan ang tanong sa akin ni Lhen, isang kaibigan. May umaaligid daw kasi sa kanya na matinong lalake, kaya lang, wala siyang maramdamang spark. Kaya nagtatanong siya kung saan nakakabili ng spark.
Hindi ko alam ang sagot. Kung alam ko lang, eh di sana matagal na akong pumila para mamakyaw. Kailangan ko rin ng spark. Maraming-maraming spark.
Ano ba ang spark? Ito iyong kuryente na nararamdaman mo kapag kasama mo ang isang tao. Iyong nanlalambot ang tuhod mo. Iyong parang nauutal ka at ayaw gumana ng motor skills mo. Iyong kahit na anong gawin at sabihin niya, o kahit wala siyang ginagawa o sinasabi, kinikilig ka na. Kung hindi mo naman siya kasama, nangingiti ka kapag naiisip mo siya.
Ang tawag dun… spark. Magic. Kilig. Kuryente.
At iyon din ang hinahanap ko ngayon.
May isang lalaking may gusto sa akin. Mabait siya. May hitsura. Matino. Stable. Mature. May napatunayan na sa buhay. Maalalahanin. May konting sense of humor. At alam ko, aalagaan niya ako.
Siya iyong lalaking iuuwi mo sa nanay mo at alam mong magiging mabuting asawa at tatay ng mga anak mo.
Pero wala akong maramdamang “kilig.” Walang magic.
Lagi kong sinasabi, “He’s a ‘good on paper’ guy, pero walang spark. Kahit kiskisan ko man ng bato… wala talaga!”
Sabi ng mga kaibigan ko, hindi na daw importante ang spark. Hindi daw ito tiket para sa isang masaya at tumatagal na relasyon. Maraming factors ang dapat i-consider, hindi lang spark…
Aanhin mo ang spark kung lagi naman kayong nag-aaway? Aanhin mo ang spark kung hindi naman kayo nagkakasundo sa mga bagay-bagay? Kung hindi naman siya puwedeng mag-commit? Kung alam mo naman na masama siya para sa iyo?
Noong huling usap namin ni Lhen, sabi niya, baka daw bigyan na niya ng chance iyong manliligaw niya, kahit wala siyang maramdamang spark.
Pati tuloy ako, napapaisip na rin… Itutuloy ko ba kahit na walang spark? Magiging masaya kaya kami, kahit na hindi ako kinikilig sa kanya? Importante ba talaga ang “magic” sa isang relasyon?
“Baka naman nasa atin lang ang problema,” dagdag ni Lhen.
Mali nga ba ako kung maghanap man ako ng spark sa isang relasyon? Pang teenager na nga lang ba iyong “nanlalambot ang tuhod” chuva at kapag nasa 20s ka na ay nakakasuka na ang humangad ng kilig?
Siguro nga masyado na akong matanda para maghanap ng lalaking magbibigay sa akin ng “kilig” dahil hindi naman kami mabubusog doon at hindi rin puwedeng pambayad ng tuition ng magiging anak namin ang spark.
But I am also old enough to know what I want in a guy… and having that “kilig” feeling is one of them. At para sa akin, ang pakikipag-relasyon sa isang taong walang spark, ay maitutumbas na rin sa pagse-settle.
At ayokong mag-settle.
Pero di ako nawawalan ng pag-asa. Malay mo ngayon, walang spark. Pero eventually, sa tamang panahon, baka magka-spark na. Kung paano, hindi ko alam...
Meron kayang binebentang spark sa pinakamalapit na Mercury Drug o Mini-Stop? Saan nga ba nakakabili ng spark?
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Kung nakakabili man ng spark na ito, I'm sure kukuha kami para ibenta sa Select. Siguradong ang taas ng benta namin.
Kung nakakabili ng spark, siguro nag-hoard na ng spark si Leng para kay Albert, si Connie para kay Joven, yung isa kong officemate na lalake para sa ex-officemate namin na babae, at si Ron ni CK para kay CK.
As for me, di ko kailangan ng spark. =)
Maan @ 12:46 AM
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