Sunday, July 03, 2005
Kwarto
I share a room with my mom. Mama's girl kasi ako and nandun lahat ng gamit such as the big bed, the TV, the DVD player, the aircon. So technically, I don't have a room of my own. My 'room' in this house has been converted to the computer room/library/ironing room. It's actually a mess. The PC is here, as well as books and magazines, toys, clothes to be ironed, our shoes and a lot more stuff.
I may not have a room of my own. But I have a cabinet of my own. My cabinet where I store almost all the things which I treasure. But I take for granted most of the time. Such as...
...my clothes. It is such a mess! I tell myself everyday that I'm going to clean/arrange my clothes. Then bigla akong tatamarin. I know I need to sort them out. I need to take out the clothes I haven't worn for 6 months or more. Everyday, my dilemma is what to wear to the office. I would whine to Mama and tell her, "Wala na akong masuot!" and she would reply, "Walang masuot? Punung-puno yang cabinet mo." That's why I need to throw/give/store away the items I rarely use.
....my books. All my books are here. I love looking at my book collection. I don't have a lot of books. Maybe I have less than a hundred. I don't buy books which I can borrow from other people or the ones which are 'national bestsellers' that everybody has a copy of. I do not have a copy of Dan Brown's Da Vinci Code or Angels and Demons but both are my favorites. The books I have are usually books which not a lot of people have but are really good books such as
Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden,
Summer Sisters and
Wifey by Judy Blume,
Chat,
Connect and
Crash by Nan Mccarthy,
Till there are faces by CS Lewis,
Girls by Nic Kelman and a whole lot more. I've read somewhere that you should only lend the books you do not want. So pardon me if I'm a little bit selfish with my books. The thought of losing even one of them breaks my heart.
...photos. All the pictures that I have since high school are in my cabinet. I look at them from time to time and reminisce on how things were before. High school pictures in our navy blue jumper or white gala uniform, college photos of our yearly Halloween parties in Ayala Alabang, pictures with my Fleet Family. Of course the pictures only capture the happy moments in my life. What else should it capture? The sad ones? Of course not. That's why we take photos. So we can remember the happy moments in our lives.
...letters from friends, relatives, ex-friends, ex-crushes. I am such a sentimental fool. I keep all letters, cards, invitations which I receive from people. I seldom re-read them though. Masyadong madami. I keep them because the letters serve as my diary. It documents my life and the life of my friends and the people who gave the letters to me.
I really need to clean my closet. I need to throw away the things which I do not use and are no longer useful. It's somewhat like therapy because it helps me let go of things which I do not need anymore and believe me, I have a hard time letting go... of anyone or anything.
So let's take small steps. Let's start with my cabinet.
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Maglilinis ako ng aking kwartoNa punong puno ng galit at damitMga bagay na hindi ko na kailanganNakaraang hindi na pwedeng pagpalibanMga liham ng linihim kong pag-ibigAt litrato ng kahapong maligaligDahan dahan kong iniponNgunit ngayon kailangan ng itaponDi ko na kayang mabuhay sa kahaponKaya mula ngayon, mula ngayon..May jacket mong nabubulok sa sulok Inaalikabok na sa lungkotMay panyong ilang ulit nang niluhaanIsang patak sa bawat beses na Tayo'y nasaktanAlaala ng lumuluhang kahaponDahan dahan ko na ring kinakahonNatagpuan ko na ang tunay kong ligayaLumabas ako ng kwarto't naron syaMagpapaalam na sa'yo ang aking kwarto Magpapaalam na sa'yo Magpapaalam na sa'yo ang aking kwarto..---Kwarto, Sugarfree
Maan @ 2:09 AM
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