Tuesday, June 27, 2006
99 secrets by Carl Steadman are finally revealed
90. sometimes, it feels as if we're repeating the same mistakes only to forget the ones we've already made, she said.
91. the women on television never wear mismatched underwear, he said. yes they do, she told him, but they're often talking, in those scenes.
92. alone, she thinks of his touch, but then remembers how he would only fill her with emptiness.
93. all of my thoughts are of you, he said, and of the way you would hurt me time and again.
94. when i try to remember what we had, he said, all i can really remember is what we wanted.
95. i don't really see how your need for closure necessarily entails fucking me one last time, she said.
96. there's nothing left, is there, she said. i think there's a pop-tart in the cupboard, he said.
97. you've found the right words, she said, it's just that you never quite discovered the right order.
98. you could stop, she said. and do what? he asked. something else, she said. he threw up his arms. that's exactly what i was doing before i started doing this, he said.
99. i still love you, he said, to no one.
Maan @ 11:31 PM
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Thursday, June 22, 2006
Celebrating Don's 25th B-day with Videoke & the Name Game
Who: Saturday Night Out Gang aka SNO (Maan, Trexyl, Marianne, Don, Allan, Joe)
What: Don's 25th Birthday
When: 17 June 2006
Where: Parque Espana, Alabang
Why: To celebrate Don's birthday and reunite with SNO
How:- By being overdressed which means that this is NOT JUST YOUR USUAL PARTY
- By taking lots of pictures and videos
- By shamelessly eating the food prepared by Don (pizza, pancit, cake, salty snacks)
- By drinking San Mig Light, Coke, Mudslide
- By singing with so much passion and conviction with the help of the Magic Mic
- By participating in the Name Game and trying to answer all the jologs categories by Don such as "Who are the hosts of Lunch Date?", "80s Pinoy Movies" and "Tagalog Teleseryes".
- By being KARENS aka Kaladkarin and going home during the wee hours of the morning
- By leaving our heartaches, heartbreaks, sorrows, & disappointments outside the door and celebrating like there is no tomorrow and like life is as simple as drinking, eating, singing and bonding with the people you care about and care for you too. That by tomorrow when reality and the bitter truth sinks in, they will still be there and be your friend even when the music ends and make you realize that life is worthwhile.
Maan @ 12:47 PM
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Saturday, June 17, 2006
Why I am almost always late for work
The reason why I am almost always late for work is because of the freaking internet. Until now, I am still addicted. If I'm not checking my e-mail, I'm logged into Friendster or Multiply, or most of the time I am chatting with my friends who are in the US - usually Kartika and Leny.
Here's a sneak peak of my chat conference with Kartika and Leny, complete with timestamp:
Maan (6/15/2006 11:43:00 PM): tomorrow i might watch The Lake House with my ojtsMaan (6/15/2006 11:43:07 PM): grabeh these are the things that make me sadLeny (6/15/2006 11:43:15 PM): ano ba wag ka na masadMaan (6/15/2006 11:43:18 PM): ojts ang kasama ko to watch a movie instead of u guysMaan (6/15/2006 11:43:25 PM): i feel as if wala akong friendsLeny (6/15/2006 11:43:26 PM): but we chat naman everydayMaan (6/15/2006 11:43:26 PM): :(Leny (6/15/2006 11:43:39 PM): we are always "communicating" with each other just like old timesLeny (6/15/2006 11:43:41 PM): naksMaan (6/15/2006 11:43:47 PM): kahit naLeny (6/15/2006 11:43:53 PM): although i miss our italiannis daysMaan (6/15/2006 11:43:57 PM): iba pa rin yung dinner, coffee, movie, barMaan (6/15/2006 11:44:02 PM): and then overnight at leny'sLeny (6/15/2006 11:44:05 PM): and coffee and kikay daysMaan (6/15/2006 11:44:08 PM): and then kwentuhan until madaling arawLeny (6/15/2006 11:44:20 PM): yeah i know, that was so much funMaan (6/15/2006 11:44:23 PM): sabay gising ng 7AM to make it b4 9AMMaan (6/15/2006 11:44:34 PM): and then calls ako from 9-11AM with matching internetLeny (6/15/2006 11:44:35 PM): alam mo ba i bought a huge bottle of white wine the other day..for myself onlyLeny (6/15/2006 11:44:38 PM): heheMaan (6/15/2006 11:44:41 PM): yan na naman.Maan (6/15/2006 11:44:46 PM): alam mo red was so funnyMaan (6/15/2006 11:44:54 PM): when we talk abt the time we went sa templeLeny (6/15/2006 11:45:03 PM): grabe yon, marks partyLeny (6/15/2006 11:45:07 PM): i was dead drunk!Leny (6/15/2006 11:45:09 PM): as usualLeny (6/15/2006 11:45:14 PM): i think we all were drunkMaan (6/15/2006 11:45:15 PM): he said "nalilito ako kay leny, sumasayaw na may dalang beer and bag"Maan (6/15/2006 11:45:20 PM): no this was valentine's yataLeny (6/15/2006 11:45:34 PM): hahahaLeny (6/15/2006 11:45:36 PM): beer??Leny (6/15/2006 11:45:39 PM): hindi naman ako nagbebeerKartika (6/15/2006 11:45:41 PM): ojts kasma mo? loser!!Maan (6/15/2006 11:45:44 PM): well whateverMaan (6/15/2006 11:45:50 PM): see! ang sama ni kartika!Kartika (6/15/2006 11:45:50 PM): wala ka tlgang friendsLeny (6/15/2006 11:45:51 PM): ohmy goshKartika (6/15/2006 11:45:52 PM): ahahaLeny (6/15/2006 11:45:56 PM): kartika!Maan (6/15/2006 11:45:57 PM): rubbing it in!Maan (6/15/2006 11:45:59 PM): :(Leny (6/15/2006 11:46:00 PM): DONT BE MEANLeny (6/15/2006 11:46:06 PM): ano baMaan (6/15/2006 11:46:10 PM): sige kartikaMaan (6/15/2006 11:46:13 PM): para makarma kaMaan (6/15/2006 11:46:30 PM): because of that, God will definitely send u back to Manila to accompany me alwaysKartika (6/15/2006 11:47:46 PM): maan!! dont say dat. uuwi nga ako e. kakaasaR!Right now I'm chatting with Leny again and she just told me the good news about her new job at Shisheido. Go Leny Girl! I'm sure you're going to have lots of fun with your new work. Don't forget to send me make up.
Maan @ 3:13 AM
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Friday, June 16, 2006
Secrets #38 - #89
38. as she reddened her cheek, she wondered if he'd bother to shave, or cut his fingernails.
39. just because you can't love yourself, she said, doesn't mean you shouldn't love me.
40. at the point she understood his motives she no longer understood her own.
41. he flinched, then looked away from her. they're just words, he said.
42. she wanted to know his sadness, but could only touch his tears.
43. i love you now more than ever, he said. what are you trying to say? she asked.
44. each time, they acted as if the ending were near, forgetting that it was already over.
45. she stopped longing for him when she stopped belonging to him.
46. you're always clinging to cliches, she said. you may be right, he said. but you have to admit, it's better than talking in riddles.
47. she saw, in the distance, a place where she didn't hurt. but she couldn't tell whether she was looking ahead, or behind.
48. don't worry. we'll still be friends, he said, even after you don't want to talk to me anymore.
49. you're just like bubblegum, she said. how so? he asked. i'm so tired of spelling everything out for you, she said back.
50. when he told her he had waited too long, it was then that she knew that she loved him.
51. she opened her eyes, and saw him next to her. if only for a moment.
52. (it's not the way you toy with my affections), he said. when did you learn to speak in parentheses? she asked.
53. she would close her eyes and imagine herself as someone else, someone who possessed him.
54. they would read the personals together, feigning humor, making mental notes.
55. she kept the love letters he had sent her, to help mark the passage of time.
56. why do you always have to find something to criticize? he asked. it's one big house of cards, as it is.
57. she forgot that the only way to love him was to make him fall in love with her.
58. it's as if we were interrupted at some point, she said, and then we never quite got back around to finishing our story.
59. she reached out to hold his hand, but touched only air and sky.
60. i was so wrong, he said. that doesn't mean that now you're right, she said.
61. avalanche, she said to herself, using a secret language that only she and he understood.
62. he stole her heart, and kept it in a box, by the bed. she found it, one day, and asked him what it was. oh nothing, he replied.
63. you're not like her, he told her. that's right, she said, i'm still here.
64. you think i like this? he asked. i don't think you know anything else, she said.
65. do you love me? he asked. i'm not going to write a song about it, if that's what you mean, she said.
66. he thought of the special face she made only for him, and all the others.
67. i don't know how i could live without you, she swore to him, on a stack of travel brochures.
68. she almost believed it all, until he told her that he believed in her.
69. the world may not revolve around me, he said, but i could go supernova at any moment.
70. i can forgive you for being unfaithful, she said, but not for being indiscreet.
71. the present is just so many possible futures, waiting all together, in a crowded room, she told him, as she moved away.
72. because he reminded me of someone i used to be, she told him.
73. she wasn't able to forgive him for what he hadn't done.
74. you're the one with the steering wheel, she said. i've just got the pedals.
75. sometimes, you make me feel like christmas, she said. and other times? he asked. the rest of the time, she said, i remember how you forgot my birthday.
76. do you ever wonder if we'd be more in love if we'd never had sex? he asked her. no, she said, of course we'd be.
77. i suppose i should have known that when you told me you needed your space, that you'd find it in somebody else's closet, he said.
78. she gave of herself once more, to show him how cruel he could be.
79. he realized he had gotten old when sleep seemed more important than making things right.
80. she never knew what it was that brought him back to her, or if she had anything to do with it.
81. tell me about him, he said. in a lot of ways, she said, he reminds me of you.
82. if you always knew how it would end, she said, you might have at least saved us both the trouble.
83. if you're very quiet, you can sometimes hear the stars, she said. you're not listening to the sighs of stars, he whispered, but to the impossibility of desire.84. is he going to take the place of me? he asked. don't flatter yourself, she said.
85. you've made all those promises before, she said. the least you could do is come up with some new ones.
86. can we role-play? she asked. who do you want to be? he asked. i'll be her, she said, and you'll be you.
87. he never knew when to stop, she said, but i suppose that was part of his charm.
88. we could try something new, she said. i thought you already were, he said. what was his name, again?
89. he couldn't love her, not even enough to stay away
-- From Carl Steadman's 99 Secrets
Maan @ 12:13 AM
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Who: Saturday Night Out Gang aka SNO (Maan, Trexyl, Marianne, Don, Allan, Joe)
