Friday, June 16, 2006
Secrets #38 - #89
38. as she reddened her cheek, she wondered if he'd bother to shave, or cut his fingernails.
39. just because you can't love yourself, she said, doesn't mean you shouldn't love me.
40. at the point she understood his motives she no longer understood her own.
41. he flinched, then looked away from her. they're just words, he said.
42. she wanted to know his sadness, but could only touch his tears.
43. i love you now more than ever, he said. what are you trying to say? she asked.
44. each time, they acted as if the ending were near, forgetting that it was already over.
45. she stopped longing for him when she stopped belonging to him.
46. you're always clinging to cliches, she said. you may be right, he said. but you have to admit, it's better than talking in riddles.
47. she saw, in the distance, a place where she didn't hurt. but she couldn't tell whether she was looking ahead, or behind.
48. don't worry. we'll still be friends, he said, even after you don't want to talk to me anymore.
49. you're just like bubblegum, she said. how so? he asked. i'm so tired of spelling everything out for you, she said back.
50. when he told her he had waited too long, it was then that she knew that she loved him.
51. she opened her eyes, and saw him next to her. if only for a moment.
52. (it's not the way you toy with my affections), he said. when did you learn to speak in parentheses? she asked.
53. she would close her eyes and imagine herself as someone else, someone who possessed him.
54. they would read the personals together, feigning humor, making mental notes.
55. she kept the love letters he had sent her, to help mark the passage of time.
56. why do you always have to find something to criticize? he asked. it's one big house of cards, as it is.
57. she forgot that the only way to love him was to make him fall in love with her.
58. it's as if we were interrupted at some point, she said, and then we never quite got back around to finishing our story.
59. she reached out to hold his hand, but touched only air and sky.
60. i was so wrong, he said. that doesn't mean that now you're right, she said.
61. avalanche, she said to herself, using a secret language that only she and he understood.
62. he stole her heart, and kept it in a box, by the bed. she found it, one day, and asked him what it was. oh nothing, he replied.
63. you're not like her, he told her. that's right, she said, i'm still here.
64. you think i like this? he asked. i don't think you know anything else, she said.
65. do you love me? he asked. i'm not going to write a song about it, if that's what you mean, she said.
66. he thought of the special face she made only for him, and all the others.
67. i don't know how i could live without you, she swore to him, on a stack of travel brochures.
68. she almost believed it all, until he told her that he believed in her.
69. the world may not revolve around me, he said, but i could go supernova at any moment.
70. i can forgive you for being unfaithful, she said, but not for being indiscreet.
71. the present is just so many possible futures, waiting all together, in a crowded room, she told him, as she moved away.
72. because he reminded me of someone i used to be, she told him.
73. she wasn't able to forgive him for what he hadn't done.
74. you're the one with the steering wheel, she said. i've just got the pedals.
75. sometimes, you make me feel like christmas, she said. and other times? he asked. the rest of the time, she said, i remember how you forgot my birthday.
76. do you ever wonder if we'd be more in love if we'd never had sex? he asked her. no, she said, of course we'd be.
77. i suppose i should have known that when you told me you needed your space, that you'd find it in somebody else's closet, he said.
78. she gave of herself once more, to show him how cruel he could be.
79. he realized he had gotten old when sleep seemed more important than making things right.
80. she never knew what it was that brought him back to her, or if she had anything to do with it.
81. tell me about him, he said. in a lot of ways, she said, he reminds me of you.
82. if you always knew how it would end, she said, you might have at least saved us both the trouble.
83. if you're very quiet, you can sometimes hear the stars, she said. you're not listening to the sighs of stars, he whispered, but to the impossibility of desire.84. is he going to take the place of me? he asked. don't flatter yourself, she said.
85. you've made all those promises before, she said. the least you could do is come up with some new ones.
86. can we role-play? she asked. who do you want to be? he asked. i'll be her, she said, and you'll be you.
87. he never knew when to stop, she said, but i suppose that was part of his charm.
88. we could try something new, she said. i thought you already were, he said. what was his name, again?
89. he couldn't love her, not even enough to stay away
-- From Carl Steadman's 99 Secrets
Maan @ 12:13 AM
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